Being a girl

I don’t actually know how to explain what is for me being a girl, but maybe I can explain how I feel being one. Well, sometimes I like it and sometimes it sucks. When you are a teenager you easily get confused by all the internal and external changes that effect you. Concerns about the body shape and appearance, love crashes, disappointments, awareness or lack of awareness about obligations at school, future plans, expectations, but above of this lack of self esteem.

The pressure is coming from everywhere – whether the monster make up industry or the great expectations about you coming from the family.
As I was a bit of a tomboy during my teenage years my biggest interest was related to music and I could care less about beauty. I found that music means a lot to me and often to express my emotions I was making playlists of my favorite songs like a little emotional patterns just to go through easily with my emotional condition. It was my way of dealing with joy and depression and it worked.

I discovered my feminine side when I was at age of 21. It was then when I started thinking about how every woman is beautiful just because she is all that – a woman. The beauty industry is twisting the perception of woman’s beauty by all means. To me sincerity is beauty – that makes you a better human and that is something to be striving for, being gallant is beauty - that is something to be learned and charm is beauty and that is something you are born with.Every woman should reach her own beauty and feminity and that is the way of feeling beautiful. And to feel pretty is to feel that you are needed and respected.

Since I started working with woman’s rights I was about to discover woman’s power and woman’s weakness at the same time. I discovered how badly the woman can be treated just because she is physically weaker and how she can be dominated because of traditional customs or society pressure. I discovered the irony of when a woman is beaten it is because she asked for it, if she is raising her own voice and asking for protection she is a bitch, if she enjoys sex than she is a whore and if not she is frigid, if she is raped she must have been provoking … All of that was giving me the sense of gender equality and its great importance in everyday life. It concerns the girls, women, mothers but also men.

I heard a lot how all those feminist activities are either lesbian intentions or a bunch of bitches that want to overpower the men. But the real meaning of gender equality it is that woman wants men as whether loving and devoted husbands, caring boyfriends, fathers or brothers, respectful bosses or co-workers or as true friends. The core of it is respect. When this is achieved that is the time when a woman can actually feel proud of what she is, of being a woman.