ACTIVISM - INSIDE AND OUT

Today is not same as yesterday. My strength is changeable depending on many stories going around me. And I can't influence them (politics, economy, history repeating, catastrophes, important dates, emotions of my street, emotions of my town...). But there is a fact - when I woke up every morning, without knowing what is happening in the outside world,

I am 100% radical feminist and lesbian activist, I am proud, I am loved, I am beautiful, I am strong...and I don't give a damn who and what is going to disturb that. This is the right I gave to myself. And as I described myself, I can change this mood only if I see an old women begging in front of a drugstore, if I see violence in the street, if I see discrimination, racism and pure nationalism. Sometimes I can even smell how strong it can be, even among 12 year old boys. And this can make me feel not so 100% because I am not able to react and help every time. And this can stay inside of me and sometimes this can ruin my day. And than I see hundreds of faces...totally blind and deaf to even notice what is going on…they are walking on the street licking their ice-cream, talking on their mobile phones, showing each other their new clothes, picking their noses …… and this makes me a bit weaker.
And then I start to think and think and think.

Well my conclusion is that this kind of world doesn't exist. Sorry if this is very radical opinion… but I like to live in reality. And I like to say to my self: Lori you do give a damn and you can be disturbed. And this is ok because your activism has two channels - inside and outside of you…

Actually my point is researching how to jiggle the world which has less power than me with the world which have more power than me. And how to send right messages on right addresses. How can I say: You have the power to give life to those who are born before you!!!!!!

Maybe I can imagine that one important politician got stuck in an elevator with a Roma woman for days…..and after learning from each other things can be changed….but this movie still don't have a scenario.

And yes, I just wanted to tickle your minds. I am not over with my point. Honestly, I don't need it in this moment now….I still need to hope and continue to fight…… maybe break few more walls until more people recognize that there is some activism inside our outside of their existence…. And than we can fill all elevators together….You never knows who can get stuck…..

And when you think you are burned and there is nothing more you can do….when the bright clouds don't find your place on earth….then you can grab a heritage your sisters and brothers left for you and say I have: SOMETHING INSIDE SO STRONG. And don't forget that this story comes from the stomach of a radical lesbian feminist. It is morning and I woke up again 100% me.

(Labi Siffre)
The higher you build your barriers
The taller I become
The farther you take my rights away
The faster I will run
You can deny me
You can decide to turn your face away
No matter, cos there's....
Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho' you're doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
The more you refuse to hear my voice
The louder I will sing
You hide behind walls of Jericho
Your lies will come tumbling
Deny my place in time
You squander wealth that's mine
My light will shine so brightly
It will blind you
Cos there's......
Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho' you're doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Brothers and sisters
When they insist we're just not good enough
When we know better
Just look 'em in the eyes and say
I'm gonna do it anyway
I'm gonna do it anyway
Something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho' you're doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Brothers and sisters
When they insist we're just good not enough
When we know better
Just look 'em in the eyes and say
I'm gonna do it anyway
I'm gonna do it anyway
I'm gonna do it anyway
I'm gonna do it anyway
Because there's something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho' you're doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Because there's something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho' you're doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong