With Respect, UN-DECIDED

“Together we can do more”; “We are moving forward”; “Integrated and secure Macedonia”…are only part of the slogans of some political parties presented and posted in every corner in Macedonia this month. Day by day we listen in the Press conferences, Press Reactions, Reaction of reactions and all this is endless. Politicians lead us toward imaginary herds, I would get inside the herd but whether I would like to occupy myself with the “principle of the heard” I don’t really know. Their “instant” solutions for the way out of the current situation are only set of texts they interject in our heads and more we swallow their policy more we fall into their clutches.

There are still individuals who have fortunately kept their personal identity and can make a decision themselves, but majority in Macedonia are people to which given political parties dictate the direction of thinking which brings to “forced” identification with the political matrix created by that particular party. Respectively, according to my perception, there are people whose ideals correspond with party’s ideals, who entirely concur with solutions for improvement of the quality of life proposed by the party and whose unreservedness I accept. On the other hand there are people involved in the party for only one reason – the existence which leads to their assimilation and “voluntarily under coercion” functioning. These people simply give themselves over to the will of the political party and with no contemplation they obey the rules of the game. There are also true ostriches among them, proud of their “feathers” and “long legs” but if you ask them about anything related to the current party policy, they would bury their heads. But their temporary employment, with marathon extension of the limited employment contract, so jealously beloved, arouse interest among others to join concrete party, with a hope they will also get employed one day. This appearance is indeed a result of the high unemployment rate i.e. the lack of existential resources to survive in our environment, the lack of alternatives for dignity employment which coincide with their knowledge and skills, all guiding to the shore of political “immersion”.

In a while these entire things place us in the basket of fear and distrust. They are even more intensified in the mutual communication and create negative emotions among people with different political orientation. Sometimes even within the same political party groups are created and considered as competition, which on its merits direct to a conclusion “if you are not for us, then you are against us”. This is actually a crucial prerequisite for long-term confrontations and conflicts, lost of sense for humanity, closeness, friendship and coexistence. Well this is sad; we transformed ourselves into robots, insensitive, running after material things that will provide us comfort, happiness, and we forgot about empathy, love, simple need to be productive, to do and create things, to transfer the gained knowledge to others, to simply avoid the “imitation of life”.

Where am I in all this? I resisted the spring-summer parliamentarian wind 2008 though it all smelled like employments, smooth-spoken promises, handshaking through sardonic smile.

Now for these 2009 local and presidential elections, with a great pleasure in Gulliver’s style I follow the nonsense war between Lilliputians and Blefuscudians. One persistently proving that can do nothing without their “mother” – the central government, while others, the same people from 18 years before, are bit more indigent in their rhetoric. Well yes, I wanted to depersonalize myself and sell my own identity arduously built last 25 years for an employment as a “referent for theater and film art” for which I would require some money from the “mother” for only one performance during 2008 and that wouldn’t disturb any of the politicians, at least not during the election campaign.

As a conclusion I can say one thing solely: “as a biological individual it is alike all other humans, as a social being it is alike some other people, but as a person, the human is UNIQUE”.

With respect,

UN-DECIDED

Ivana Jordanova

Organization of Women of Municipality Sveti Nikole